Health in 2010 and baby news........

So, I have delayed posting this...why?...I don't know. But, I figured I had better post this soon before people started getting mad at me..., I had an MRI done recently on my brain. I met with my neurologist to discuss the results, and they found two more lesions on my brain. It has been a hard few weeks for me to even accept this. I feel like I have been doing everything right, but to no avail. Yes, there is no cure for MS, but there are still things that people can do to make their quality of life better. I have been doing those things, but MS has a different idea of how things should go. Basically, my medicine has been entering my system, probably helping lessen the effects, but not able to stop them completely. I just think a lot of things suck right now, to be frank. I am confused, but I'm happy that I am still here, my family is healthy....... The discussion of changing medicines was brought up but we have decided against it at this time. Much to many people's disapproval, I have stopped taking my medicine officially. This is in hopes of getting pregnant this year. (this is why we decided against a new form of medicine) Basically, if you are unfamiliar with MS, it (my immune system) attacks my brain, spinal cord, eyes, etc and tears them down until they are unable to function. The medicine helps by breaking down my immune system, making it nearly non-existent, so that it is unable to harm me as much. This is why it can be deadly for people with MS to catch even the faintest flu or cold. With all of this being said, coming off my medicine is going to slowly begin to ramp my immune system back to fully functioning capacity. This is going to get my body ready to sustain a pregnancy and grow another life. All of this comes with great risk, though, that I will develop another flare up or cause more damage to my brain or spinal cord, etc. I have weighed the options......I have regrets in life, I believe we all do, but I refuse to have any regrets about not having more children.....I plan to fight this. I pray and I hope you will join me in doing so, that my health will flourish and we will have a safe and healthy pregnancy.

I have MS, but it doesn't have me.......